I want a narrow waist...not a narrow cervix!!

I neglected to mention (possibly because I forgot all about it until my handy phone calendar alarm popped off) that Tony and I had a Dr.'s appt with my OBGyn on Tuesday. I scheduled it after I started my last period just to sort of talk to my dr. before we moved on to the next step. Which I thought would be Clomid. Not the case.

After waiting over an hour, the Dr. basically came in and looked over my file again. And then was reminded at how narrow my cervix was and how awful long it took for the HSG procedure I had back in August. He reiterated that we both appear healthy and fertile, so he didn't think Clomid would help us. However, he clearly thought we needed help, because we have officially been referred to an RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist - aka, a fertility specialist).

Here's where it gets tricky: Throughout the conversation, Tony and I heard very different things. I basically heard the Dr say he's never seen a cervix like mine, there is basically no chance we can get pregnant naturally, we would probably be perfect candidates for IUI, blah blah blah. Tony heard that though the Dr did state how narrow my cervix was, and thought it MIGHT be a reason for my infertility, but he's never seen one like mine be the cause. See, 2 very different things. And I like his way better. So I think what I'm going to do is just call the Dr back today or tomorrow and have his nurse clarify. Just for my own peace of mind.

Oh and just for poops and giggles (what an expression!), I called 3 of the 4 infertility clinics in Oklahoma yesterday. The 1st is closing in a couple of weeks (dr is retiring) so they're not taking on any new patients. The 2nd was incredibly expensive just for the initial consultation, though they were very nice to me. And the 3rd, the woman was really rude. When I mentioned that our Dr suspects we may be great candidates for IUI, and I just wanted a ballpark for what those costs, as the Internet gives a huge range, she, very waspishly, told me that an "IUI itself is $292, but you also have to have ultrasounds, possibly medication, etc. You can't just walk into an infertility clinic and get an IUI." No shit, Sherlock!! That's why I asked for a ballpark figure. And go ahead and tell your Dr that I wouldn't step foot in his clinic with someone ELSE'S cervix with a biatch like you working there.

I was furious. I would assume that most people visiting an infertility clinic are struggling with INFERTILITY!! And it ain't easy. We are a very vulnerable people. Show some flippin' sensitivity, skank!!

Anywho, there is one more clinic at OU Medical, and I'm going to try and call them today. Otherwise, if we do decide to go that route (which we will eventually if this doesn't happen soonish), we'll probably go to the more expensive place. I'd rather pay a little more and be treated like a human being.

I'm trying really hard to keep a good attitude. Tony firmly believes that me being a bucket of stressballs is a major contributor to our lack of baby. He's probably right. But I can't change who I am. Maybe I should try acupuncture. A fellow blogger and friend just started it and I think it went well for her. Or maybe just get regular massages. Do you think I could convince Tony to pay for that?